Here we are, January One! A call came from my friend Jamie, from New York, at one in the morning last night. She was reflecting on her life, (as do we all when the end of the year approaches).
The alert, open and giving thoughts we shared were not only personal and intimate between two friends, but felt life altering on a profound level, (admittedly most things do at four in the morning), however, this was not one of those late night ramblings, brought about by fear, and searching for answers...yes, the idea of hope and renewal was the basis of our conversation, nothing earth shattering about that...however....the direction of our words brought us, individually and together, to the quandary, and challenge, of the understanding and execution of forgiveness...not simply forgiveness of our parents or lovers, but more importantly...forgiveness of ourselves.
NOW the conversation had power!
We both could relate to the instances in our life, (more in recent years), of the little voices in your brain that keep you awake at night, in the wee hours, attempting to commune with the Divine Universe, asking for guidance, and attempting to block out the shame and self loathing of our follies and sins...and the conviction with which we promise to change, and the honest intent of our late and lonely prayers.
We both felt a Divine Kinship with each other by the end of our late night phone call, across the country.....we realized we were put here, in front of each other, on this path for some reason...and last night we both felt the sweet and gentle honor of GRACE, bestowed upon our tiny little beings...NO MATTER WHAT....all you have.. is right in this moment...nothing else matters except what you do with this moment...and if you knew you couldn't fail, what would you do?
Much Love, Respect and Joy, to all in the new moment of this new year, Juner
